@emmycantbemeeko Agreed! This became clear to me during the process, and I beat myself up a bit about it as the hours inched on, but I wasn't exactly at the height of my rational decision-making skills when I made that choice (and, well, that doctor knows what the heck to do if someone else comes in, I guess). Thanks very much for this - it's good to know. Hopefully nobody will take nearly ANY of my choices as a model, honestly, and will find more definitive information on what to do elsewhere.
@corner desk This has definitely occurred to me as a likely possibility, but I didn't even have the ability to really think about it until years later. Nobody wants to believe that someone they love would intentionally let that happen, but of course that doesn't mean it isn't what happened.
@DebtOrAlive Thank you VERY much for this comment. The information I noted in the post was definitely only to the best of my recollection and understanding of what medical professionals at PP, the health department, and elsewhere told me (and also several years out of date), and I debated whether I should even write this because of that. I wish I'd had all of this information at the time, that I'd felt comfortable talking to the people in my world who might have had this information then (not all of my choices were rational, I'm aware), and also that it hadn't happened on a weekend, when most of my options for state/county run care were closed. And AMEN on Combivir. That shit was nasty, though 100% worth the long-term outcome.