"I don’t ever think about future me. I’m really mean to future me. Only nice to this moment me." Bingo, Logan. And this is why I fall asleep on the couch about five nights a week. Thank you for sharing this, I very much related to/enjoyed it.
Thank you. Thankyouthankyouthankyou both for being so very brave and articulate and honest. It is really hard and lonely sometimes to deal with something that is so engulfing and difficult and that you can't tell your coworkers about even a little bit, but which certainly affects work. And also everything else. Speaking as another bipolar someone who can't afford mental health treatment right now because even in-network therapists and generic meds are too damn expensive, and so has to put up with surviving and "good enough for now," thank you. Seriously, guys, words can't adequately explain how much this meant to me and probably a lot of other people. Thank you for doing this.
Gutted. Ugh. Thanks for posting this, today of all days, because it is heartening to know there is someone out there Feeling My Same Feelings. It is also a kick in the pants to get back into therapy. Thanks.
Wow, I love this, thank you. I also have anxiety and depression and cough up $190/month for my amazing therapist. I was going twice a month but "graduated" to once a month, which makes my bank account happy. Plus I pay a $35 copay for my amazing SSRI. I also think my anxiety and depression have played a part in my past inability to make responsible financial decisions. This post really helps me understand the rest of your posts, Logan. Sometimes the posts take a bit of a "LOL I'm a mess!" tone, which was slightly off putting. But with this added knowledge, I 100% get it. In the past I've done the same thing. Like "I can't pay my bills on time because I'm scatter brained!" when really I was just so depressed that paying things on time took so much effort that I couldn't muster it. Sorry to get all deep on you, but I wanted to explain why I liked this so much. Good luck with your new therapist, and please accept money from your parents to go if you like him/her! This is the first therapist I've ever had that I connected with, and I can't overstate how helpful it's been for me.
@Benny Profane Not only is your comment poorly written and riddled with improper punctuation, and not only is your tone presumptuous and condescending, and not only is your logic invalid and your argument weak, but also you are just completely incorrect and obviously speaking outside of your depth. If you'd had a childhood anything like the one described here, you'd know that we are the people who care the MOST about our education and career ambitions. We are the people sitting in the front of the classroom furiously taking notes and caring about every grade. We are driven by a special kind of fire. This is because of the reason explained by the very title of this piece (so you also get an F for reading comprehension): we are determined (moreso than others who've never experienced it)not to be poor. After living a life of misery based on other people's terrible life choices, you make sure to NEVER be dependent on anyone else's life choices again. Granted, this is typically true only of people who manage to escape early childhood with a modicum of self-efficacy, and many don't. But many, many of us do, and we demonstrate resilience like no other. Take a class on Risk and Resilience if you truly want to understand more about how/why this happens. And drop that "young lady" crap, please. It's just awful.
I am definitely interested in hearing more about what does and what doesn't affect your credit score. Every time I talk about closing down a credit card people say NO! but I do it anyway, because I want less cards, not more.