It takes a lot self-awareness to realize something like this, and a lot of courage to write about it. I think you've got your head in the right place.
Hey I went to college with you! Yay Connor!
This is a good post. I also struggle with how to define my day as "productive" or not. But I figure, if I minimize distractions and put in a solid day of work, whether I complete something or not doesn't matter.
@lisaf I spent $300 to go to Harry Potter World with my ex. I do not consider this a loss.
@Amanda DH Amen!
Ha, I make a point of not flying through O'Hare anymore. I also like to get direct flights, if I can afford it. No worrying about layovers or missed connections!
@Jake Reinhardt The DE worked very well. The bulk of the fleas were gone within a few days; they were completely eradicated after a week or so. That being said, I did not unpack my boxes or duffel bags of clothes for an entire month. My roommates and I would compare notes; "There's a bite on my ankle" or "No bites today!" We did not ask our landlord to pay for the DE because we didn't want them to realize that we had (haha) ruined the floors. They did offer to continue spraying the house (which would not have ruined the floors), but the initial sprays hadn't been very effective and we felt weird about pesticide being sprayed all over our beds, furniture, clothes, etc. Maybe that was unwise. IDK. On the upside, the house was 110 years old, and I did not see a single spider or cockroach in that house for the whole year that I lived there. That was beautiful.
Point being, I sympathize.
My housemates and I were psyched to move into a new (rental) house. I was at work and my housemate, M, picked up the keys. The mgmt company then informed him, "The house has fleas. We have sprayed it, but they are still there." My roommate told me, and at work I immediately started Googling flea treatment. I landed on a page extolling the virtues of diatomaceous earth (DE), a white powder that works physically instead of chemically (the little sharp particles get in the fleas' joints). You can get food-grade DE that's safe enough to eat. So I told M to get some and throw it everywhere. When I came home, it looked like it had snowed inside. After we'd let it sit for a day, we started vacuuming it up. However, the dust DESTROYED the (brand-new) vacuum. So we resorted to mopping. HOWEVER, little did we realize, DE is not water soluble. So we mopped it up, and when the water dried, there were white streaks all over the hardwood floors... and cemented in all the cracks between the boards. Pretty sure it's gonna be there forever. THANKS, FLEAS.
I think about this too.