Women in their fifth decade often find themselves wedged, viselike, between two generations.
So much of my identity is tied up in how people find and see me online. But who is Kate Landon online?
While I’m not having too much difficulty adjusting to no longer having a Sunday evening appointment every other week, the biggest joy of being done with therapy is what it’s done for my budget.
Seeing how someone from another culture approached life on a daily basis was illuminating. Unfortunately, it mostly illuminated my own helplessness and laziness.
No one asked me to anticipate when we’ll need more toilet paper and find out which store has the best deal on an economy pack, either. My emotional labor is automatic, a kind of compulsion.
I’ve always identified with Scrooge—both the Scrooge at the end of the story who sees that money well-spent can ameliorate human suffering, and, critically, the Scrooge at the beginning who hates spending so much he doesn’t heat his home or office and dines on free street-cart soup.
There is nothing more uncertain than the future. You can set goals, make a plan, work hard, and still end up in a totally unexpected place. My life has been a lot of that lately: a swiftly changing ocean current that I’m compelled to follow.
Plenty of men I’m close to have died, but I’ve never inherited money before.