Greg Hoy is the CEO of the growing design firm Happy Cog. He’s written a thoughtful piece on Medium about finally giving in and participating in his company’s annual peer review process for the first time. The results? He kind of sucks.
If having your boss write a public journal entry where he discusses his shortcomings has ever been a dream of yours — and I know it’s been a dream of mine — you might find this very satisfying. Perhaps too satisfying.
My first reaction was surprise. Then defensiveness. Maybe a bit of anger. I thought things like, “Well, Steve Jobs had issues, but Apple turned out just fine. It’ll be ok, Greg. Grab a beer.”
So what came through loud and clear?
I can’t let go. Of basically anything. And I leave talented people looking for stuff to do because I won’t take the time to show them.
I make snap decisions without consulting others. I’m impatient.
I spend less and less time with each employee. Some know very little about me, and I about them.
I get defensive
I handle disappointment poorly
Some employees might be scared of me
That last one almost brought me to tears, and it was mentioned by more than one person. While I was walking around selling myself as Mr. Approachable, I was actually, in all likelihood, someone people avoided eye contact with. How could I have gotten to this place? Next to my family, this company is the most important thing in my life, this company. I love it, and I love my coworkers. But they could be afraid of me? My God.
God, I love peer reviews. And work feelings. I miss them.
Also maybe this is Medium’s true calling: Livejournal for bosses. “I can’t let go, of basically anything.” Yes. Thank you, Boss. I think we have all learned a lot today.